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Wednesday, May 5, 2010, 9:32 PM

Second Chance

"I've learned my lesson."

...or so I told myself. Did I really? :/ Sith. Forget it. My mind is nowhere near my body. I say but don't do. I warn but don't listen. I think but don't believe. I've come to the point where a lot of things make me paranoid. I think twice-twice but still I become unsure of a lot of things. When did this happen? :< I don't know how to handle a lot of things to the point where I just want to forget it all and never face it but... it'll find me wherever I go. I've made irrevocable mistakes before but this one just hit me on the spot. It's affected me ever since and I thought I've made my peace but no. All this time I've been telling myself 'I'm alright, everything is fine now.' turns out I've been lying to myself...

tragic isn't it?

"I do not understand therefore I cannot comprehend." How troublesome. I want to cry. I don't need this right now. Not now. Save me :( I don't want to have another scar. Not this time >< Lord, I have a lot to thank for. If it weren't for You I would've been destroyed. Help me to see the error of my ways and this time help me to fully understand and learn from it. I pray that I will look to You this time.

Monday, November 9, 2009, 7:00 AM

First Semester is Officially OVER!!

Woot! :o) I haven't blogged in a long time mahn :p Well it just proved that i'm a busy person - or so I say hihi. Anyhooo, first sem is officially over mahn! I just saw my final grades today (except for humanities.. who cares) and I'm proud to say.. I PASSED EVERYTHING! Although I'm a little disappointed with my grades this semester. I was aiming for at least a 1. something in Graphics, oh well, who am I to complain.

Anyhoo, my design and vistech grades did not change at all!D: Sir is so mean, i bet gi tapul na toh -.-

Today we officially started our "first day" for second sem.. aweee :D We had a lot of vacant time today so all we did was chat hehe. OH! Our math subject mahn! We're only 17 people and the prof said if we don't reach 20 the subject will be dissolved! NUUU D: We might end up in some other college and we'll be separated :( I just hope we reach exactly 20!

GAH! I are sleepy NAW! i can barely open my eyes so now i shall go to sleep.. nyt!

Monday, October 19, 2009, 4:08 AM

Mini Reunion 2

Weeew!! Haven't blogged in a long time. hehe. Anyhoo I got a great piece to blog about today :) It's was about 4 months ago when I last saw H4 with those who went to Manila. At that time it was a good-bye get-together... well now is a welcome back get-together. Yes, today I was finally able to see, not all, but most of H4 here at home.YEY! They certainly lit up my world :) Kenley, Nigel, James, Clarence and Todd were present! I know Todd doesn't go to school in Manila but we barely see him here in Cebu hehehe.

Anyhoo everyone waited in Ayala and I was to pick them up. I forgot to thinking about the capacity of the car so you could there was a kind of glitch in the system. Fortunately, Leigh knew how to drive and brought his car with him so we divided the group. Most of the girls rode in my car along with Nigel Kenley and Paul while I, the owner of the car rode with Leigh, I had to direct the way else they'd get lost. So it was Leigh, me, James (who was eating dim sum in the front seat), Mike( who was squishing me!!!), Todd and Clarence in Leigh's car. So we were on our way~

When we arrived the guys played basketball dayon while the girls were upstairs in my dad's room watching "The Ugly Truth." Leigh and Paul were watching with us. Since Mon was the only one who brought food we had to ask Berta who was still coming to bring food. When he arrived, I didn't actually think he'd bring the whole junkfood section with him o.O Okay so maybe he brought waaaay too much snacks at least we had snacks. Muriel wasn't able to make it because she had stuffs to do at school. She was willing to catch up but then she thought it was too late already. Don't wori Muriel there'll be a next time :)

After watching the movie, we decided to call up the guys so we could watch "Stay Alive" together. It's a horror movie where the video game that the main characters were playing came true. It was a ladda fun!!! Most of them were screaming.. Patty and James the best! Todd, Mike and Nigel were at the back busy with food. I took lotsa pics of the pips screaming their hearts out wahahahaha! Paul was busy opening ALL of the snacks Berta bought for us. It was like he was forcing himself to eat.

Well the screaming part was a ladda fun. After watching that movie we took a break and walked around.. still in my dads room. Others were outside in the garden while others were playing with the piano. The guys were telling nonsense, corny jokes to which we laughed because..well... not that the joke was funny but the fact that it was corny. HAHA.

Later that time Mon remembered she brought the DVD of H4 I made long before. We decided to watch it :) Stay Alive made us scream but the DVD, even though it was only for 30 min, made us laugh real hard! Yes, nonsense videos that we took during our break, and NOT our break, in school were viewed. Well I can certainly say we were bunch of neurotic, nonsense people... neurotic, nonsense-cute people to say the least :) While the fun lasted... we can't stop time from moving on ergo the gang had to leave.

Surely I'll be having more moments like this in the future. The best thing about good-byes is that it gives us the thrill of seeing each other again in the future. Time so short spent with these hobos can surely last me a lifetime :D ILABU GAYS~

~Ca-Ca-Carolyn~

Sunday, September 6, 2009, 1:54 AM

Bubble Bee Tea House

Hurah for yesterday! ^^ Yesterday morning we had our CWTS again with Ma'am "Serena". Ugh. She's so annoying and so nonsense. She's a re ed teacher and yet she keeps saying the word "damn." I seriously get irked by her -.-" Anyhooo~ After CWTS we went to Ayala with Mon, Kat, Bam2x, Mak2x, Dave, and Yangco. Bam2x invited Papa Ronnie along as well :)) We ate at Shakey's and the pips ordered mojos and ceasar's salad... eck. :)) We also ordered pizzaaa!!! ^^

After our lunch (so full btw -.-) we were supposed to watch District 9 but then it wasn't on the cinemas so we ended up hanging out in SBC!! yeah!! :D Didn't order anything though.. was so fuulll.. hehehehe

After SBC we went to Bubble Bee Tea House for some Naicha. We had to split up since Ronnie brought a small car. Bam2x, Kat, Dave, and Mon took a taxi and me, Yangco, Mak2x rode with Ronnie :)) we didn't know where Bubble Bee Tea House was so we had a really fun triip!!! :)) We circled the air con building of CDU trying to look for Bubble Bee Tea House :))

Anyhooo we found where the building was and we spent errr about 5 hours in Bubble Bee just laughing and drinking TEA!!! Such a fun night!! :D:D Papa Ronnie gave us some advice about college pud and we really got inspired! Mini wave for Papa Ronnie n_n :)) Anyhoooo I think I've finally found the right people to be with in college :D

Saturday, August 22, 2009, 6:08 AM

Keep Your Helmet On

...Get me out of this cavern or i'll cave in...

Wednesday, August 12, 2009, 7:11 AM

>< People say not to dwell in the past coz' it has passed and will never come again but, oh boy, do I wish I could do it again and again. It's not that I want to keep reliving my past life, I know I should expect something new and entirely different from what I had before. I can't deny that I'm scared, "what if the future isn't as good as the past?" Normally, I would choose the time where I felt best. I know a lot of answers to my questions but, as usual, I'm being stubborn in facing the truth, reality scares me. Dwelling in past could ruin the betterment of my experiences in the future. I should be grateful what happened to me in the past happened. My past is what makes me who I am now.

Just now I was viewing our Fresh Meet 0'9 pics and our pics in high school, I can't help but notice how incomplete we are. Everyone is truly unique, no one can fill the shoes of the people I've shared my time with, whether good or bad. College is fun, yes, the people are fun and interesting, but they're not HS4. I already know I shouldn't seek for what's not there and learn to accept what is before me. The memory of it all is still fresh until now.

My craving to have the old times back is a temporary phase in which all fresh graduates feel. For us, we were like a family wherein we completed each other. We made each other whole. What lies ahead scares me and I can't face it alone. I know God has prepared a road for me and I just have to drive on it. There are moments where I want to take a U-turn and head back to where I feel the safest.

It feels like time I spent with HS4 was so short. It meant everything to me, even the nonsense stuffs, they added flavor to our stories. I'm confused T_T I'm happy with my decision to take Architecture because it's what I wanted but the pressure I feel is heavy and I need someone to lean on once in a awhile. For us, HS4, everyone would be lending their shoulders and always ready to catch you when you fall. SIGH. It's never gonna be the same. We said it ourselves. You said it yourself.

Just thinking about it gets me teary-eyed. The moment I see everyone again, I know, I will surely cry. If I see everyone even for just a day. I know others have got it worse than I am but this is how I really feel.

Reality.
...such a scary place to be...

Monday, August 10, 2009, 6:56 AM

College Pressure

I may not literally show it but I'm actually really pressure inside. I keep sighing a lot these days and wrinkles are starting to show up on my forehead! HU-HU T_T It's so difficult to just smile coz little bits of problems, though they may be small, are piling up and bringing me down. I've always been a positive thinker but whenever open up my mind to reality, somehow, reality brings me down. It's like i'm on a narrow path and i have to be careful not to see the cliff into which i might fall in.
Lord, give me strength to endure all these.... If this goes on, i know one day i might actually break and i don't want my friends to see me like that. I know i have to be strong for you, for me, and for them.

...My head aches...
...My body is sore...
...I'm dehydrated...
...I lack sleep...
...My back hurts...

These are just things that happen along the process. When i've actually accomplish and reached the end of my destination, i know i'll forget all those things and i i'll feel a hundred times much better than ever. I just pray Lord, that along the way I won't break and give up. I just need to trust in YOU and... of course... BREATHE. :D

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